Waiting

Seriously, I don't know what to do right now. Trying hard to focus on others things in the end it back on you in the end of the day. Well, it's being almost two weeks. Praying hard, that i CAN ENDURE it. I dunno how to ask about ur decision. Kinda scared I guess. Hahaha...

Well, gonna start working next week. Guess gonna be busy. Hope you doing fine and enjoy your holiday.

无限期的等待,我会等。

问我会等多久？我不能保证我会等一辈子，但我会等你的答案。

等待是很种考验，但我相信我会通过这次的考验。虽然，我不知道你的答案到最后会是什么，但我都会接受。

无限期的等待，你问我会不会等。我会。等多久？如果要等很久呢？ 我继续的等。这样很傻的。我就是傻的。

在这无限期的等待，我要怎么做？我不知道。真的不知道。

保持联络吧！: )

这段期间，还是为更好的未来继续奋斗。同时，也不会忘记，就是继续的等待。

因为，这一切都是值得。

让我继续的对你好，继续的关心你，好吗？

谢谢你！

如果可以...

如果可以， 我希望一切不要那么早就结束。希望，还能有多一点的时间。

木头一个

今天，收到你的简讯。说，如果不得空就不必来等你下课。我说， 看下怎样。结果，还是去了。还了书，就到你上课的地方，等着。也没告诉你我来了。也对，一路来都从来不告诉你我会等你下课。 你问我的时候，通常都找一些听起来逻辑的理由。

今天，也许是最后一次等你下课。看见你从课室出来，就立刻上前去。什么话也没说。问，为什么来，就说， 因为来咯！给你巧克力，你问为什么有巧克力，就说因为有咯！真是个木头来的，难道说，“因为，想见你”很难吗？ 不知道。看来，还是那么的胆小。哈哈哈！

真是木头一个。真的好想告诉你，心里的感觉。但，看你最近很忙，也不想烦你。只希望你，忙的时候也可以好好照顾身体。别饿坏了肚子。


多多保重。 : )

妈，欠了太多。对不起

mom, I love you. Just i dun used to said it in words with my own mouth.

妈，谢谢你的照顾。一路来，你口虽带着怨言但相信你心全都装满了爱与关怀。
妈，谢谢你。你这唯一的儿子虽固执顽皮，惹麻烦，你却一样爱他。你不曾宠坏他，但有时他撒娇你还会layan一下。现在也没变。
妈，一路来你付出，受的委屈颂恩都难以了结。对不起！妈，欠的太多。颂恩这辈子都无法还完这债。

心里话2

~ I will be at ur side if you need me, just tell me~

~and I'll be there~

~because I care~

不知不觉，发现自己越来越在乎。

夜了

夜了，是时候睡了。晚安！

心里话

看来，事情过了也将近一个星期。不知不觉，也陪着你去上课，考试。今天，也去陪你下课。陪着你，能感受到你内心还存在着不安。但，我却不知道该如何去安抚它。只知道，想去陪你。在等你的当时，也在慢慢开始完成手头上一些托了许久的工作。

想告诉你，其实昨天我没有课。只是因为担心而制造出理由只为了见你，希望你没事。希望你安心的考试。自己在图书馆也拿起要做的assignment慢慢开始起笔。

~ 此刻，心里在为你祈祷。希望你能够渡过这个难关。我可以一直在这里陪着你，就希望能看见你的笑容。~

这个傻佬，始终都不知道要如何把话说出来。是不想说，还是怕说呢？很多时候，都是因为怕吧。

I hope i can help you fix it. But I don't know how... 

晚安了！

It's Okay

I'm fear, but it's okay. It's gonna be fine. :)

Full Time

SELANGOR LEAGUE 1ST DIVISION : UPM ANGELS VS SDAR LIONS

Results: UPM ANGELS 34 VS SDAR LIONS 12

A great day indeed. First time after last season of tournament, I've been put in the 1st 15 line up. And played for full time. Thanks coach. Hahahaha...before I went in, coach keep on putting the same thing inside my head. "Moses, no passing. Hold to the ball, give your best shoulder hit and struggle. Support is always there. No passing." Guess it keeps on playing in my head to remind me what I need to do. Hahahaha...

But in the game, it turn the other way round. Keep on stealing the ball during the ruck. And gives penalty to the opponent. Sorry guys for my mistake. Really sorry. Promise I will do better next time. Can't believe, my fitness is picking up slowly. Can run and sustain for 1hrs straight. Gonna do better.

Well, is my last semester playing rugby. Promise myself to give all out and to really improve. Have to train myself, no fear to tackle and bring a person which bigger sizes than me. Improve in speeds and strength. Most important, technique and idea to play. I need to gain it back. Need my wide vision on the field again.

Promise myself I can do it...

Another Night

0500hrs 4th march 2012

Another sleepless night. A big cup of Americano is the main reason why I still awake. Kinda weird actually. Hahahaha...guess the Americano really giving me the "kick" I always looking for. Spending great time with seniors at Pacific Coffee Company in Puchong. It's always nice when you can find group of people with same topic, talking about politics, joke about politics, current issues and the most important is laugh as loud as you can. Hahahaha.. a fun night indeed. But there's also few minutes of serious moment when we really discuss bout the election. Final sem already, and I'm still want to be part of the election. Guess I can't really let it go didn't I?

Anyway, now my mind is focus on the games this evening at 1600hrs. Proud that the UPM Angels is now playing at 1st division of Selangor Rugby League. If we win the season, we be going to NICC leagues then the Super League. hahahaha.. Match against MBSA later, for the moment coach had put me in substitutions list for temporary until I really gain back my fitness. Well, been miss out rugby for a months and to get back on my feet again, need hell lot of training again. Is my final semester, and I wanna make myself available for 1st team once again. And I wanna go JAKARTA this May... time to work hard..and get fit..woohOO..

Tuning my mind now..10 more hours to go..

Angels on three...1,2,3...Angels..

现在不想回答

安静！我不想回答你的问题。现在真的不想

该不该继续

到的大学生涯的尾声，相信每个都慢慢开始想到地要做什么。脑袋里也不断的在分析到底什么工作能适合到个人，到底能不能找到工作。我也一样。但同时，我内心都一路在挣扎。问问我自己能不能在继续下去我所要走的，问问自己是否适合继续走下去。我要给我自己一个交代。

Finally

My last semester. Hahahaha... start to think of it, 4 years. Wow, so fast. Deep down inside, I do really hope it's my final semester. And yet, if I said I end my university life with no regrets, that will be a big lie. Hahahaha.... Well, looks like I just gonna do whatever I can this semester to enjoy it.

I miss rugby....

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

hmm... okay. My friend said I got this kinda disorder. When she saw my study table pics posted on fb. So I went to search about OCD on google and read a few article regarding this disorder. Hmm...... disorder..hahahaha...

As Clear as water

It's seems like yesterday.

Where's everything seems so clear and fresh.

Where I sit alone and look back,

It's just like watching a movie backward in HD.

It's as clear as the water,

Where I still can look clearly and deep down inside,

Where I still can feel deep down inside my heart that made of flesh.

Memories that I can't forget

even I try to forget.

Tears falls as I look back,

Smiles and joyful laugh comes out as I look back,

Too many, too many precious memories that only my heart can keep it for long.

And shall follow me now and forever.

: )

休息。我能吗？

前几天到诊所验血，由于咳嗽了有一个多月还未痊愈，医生说还是验血来看看到底什么问题。还要照x-ray 来看看我的肺。被咳嗽纠缠了一个多月，体能也渐渐衰退。论速度，体力完全都不如当初。老实说，2011年，算是我在UPM RUGBY 最顶间的状态。 几乎每场都在第一阵线，当然有时还会被遗忘。哈哈哈！没关系。但，我还是有那么一点的本事代表Putrajaya, 进入National 7's。

验血报告和x-ray证实了我受到细菌感染。教练得知后，便叫我休息。也叫我打消二月去Bangkok 比赛的念头。内心，难免有点难过。难道，真的要停下吗？我曾经放下Rugby。一放，我就放下所有，要开始又要从零开始。今天到了这level,我是付出多么大的努力。

此刻，我在争扎。。。